I took a walk...

My favorite thing about taking walks (with Jesus), is seeing people on the street. Whether its just a smile, or a hello, a shoutout, or a hug and conversation from people u know. 

God's timing, is the best timing, and my favorite timing. God has got some pretty impeccable timing!

This morning I wanted to go on my walk earlier than I intended, but because of someone working in the basement of the house that I wasn't intending, I ended up waiting to go on my walk later. And on my walk later...I ran into people I don't see often at all and was able to talk with them and even walk a little ways with them. It seems like the smallest thing, but it is one of my favorite things, and if God hadn't worked it out for me to go on my walk later, I wouldn't have seen them on my walk and that just made my morning! 

So like I said, God's timing Is the best. It's perfect. In any and every matter of our lives. So whatever you are waiting for, HOPE and TRUST in the LORD'S timing! 

Fear of the LORD

It surprises me, that I still get surprised and chuckle at God when He answers my prayers. I asked him the other week to give me more of a fear of Him, because I feel like this is one area that I lack often, having a fear of God.

So here are some instances that are reminding me of how Powerful God really is, which has caused an utter awe and even a fear of Him...
   My pastor's son just passed away, I had just seen him a week before he died. The realization that God can and will take us whenever He see's fit, for whatever reason that we may not even know. One minute we are here, one minute we are not.
  Last night we had a big thunder storm. I sat outside beside the rain came pouring just watching the lightning and hearing the thunder. I jumped a couple times...once outside, once in my bed, and once in the middle of the night a clasp of thunder startled me in my sleep. I love absolutely love thunderstorms, but to be honest, I don't ever remember being this 'afraid' during a storm. My heart was beating so fast, I felt paralyzed and unafraid to move and I was wondering if I would even be able to sleep (but of course that was no problem for me in the end). I was SURE that there was going to be a tree down somewhere near my house by the sounds of the lightning striking something and the feel of the thunder under my feet and even inside my chest. Needless to say, I was in awe and made to see that God is ALL-POWERFUL and Sovereign over absolutely everything. The weight and depth of this, is penetrating my soul and causing me to fall in love with God so much more and to see him in a newer, more respected, more revered light!
   Then this morning, Im sitting on the porch (I really love to sit on our porch!) reading my John Piper devotions and what is it about....you guessed it....FEAR OF GOD! As soon as I read the title and the first verse, I just started smiling and chuckling!

This Fear of God, is a fear that draws us in to Him. It should not cause us to run away from Him, but to run TO Him!


'Do not fear, for God has come to test you, that the fear of him may be before you, that you may not sin." Exodus 20:20

"Let all the earth fear the LORD; let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him!" Psalm 33:8

"O worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness, fear before him, all the earth." Psalm 96:9

"In the fear of the LORD is strong confidence; and his children shall have a place of refuge." Proverbs 14:26

"The fear of the LORD tendeth to life; and he that hath it shall abide satisfied; he shall not be visited with evil." Proverbs 19:23

"The fear of man lays a snare; but whoever trusts in the LORD is safe." Proverbs 29:25



His creation responds to His Sovereignty, to His Power, His Words....and we are a part of that creation. How do we respond?

It has been quite a while since I have been on here....mostly due to the fact that my computer is failing me so I havent been able to use it for about 2 months...so now I get to hijack my generous roommates computer!

The past couple of days for me, have been incredible days. They have been productive, and full of Jesus, and joy. I have felt more of God, seen more of God, learned more, and experienced more joy in the last 2 weeks than I have in the previous few months.
   I had thought that the season that I was in was just hopeless, and me just being worn out and selfish...and it was partly that. But I'm realizing more and more, that there of course was a purpose and a goal in that season. What, I do not know. But I'm finally at peace and truly grateful for the past year, which I have been waiting for, for quite a while it seems. I feel like God is restoring the joy of my salvation, reviving my soul. I feel alive and warm, and not almost dead and cold. My perspectives are changing, my attitude still needs some major work, but i can see that changing as well. God is growing me, He HAS BEEN growing me, just in a way that I wasnt wanting and that I probably have been fighting.
  I love that life happens in seasons. And there are those seasons that are not so much fun...that feel really dry and you have no clue what's going on. But you just have to keep going, you have to endure. And then God breaks through. I needed to learn to endure, I still do, but I actually am starting to feel stronger. I know this is just the beginning, and these things take baby steps, but I just want to say again how grateful I am for each and every season of life. The good, the bad, the frustrating, the happy. God is good through it all, and Sovereign and LORD over it all. And I always have things I need to learn and areas I can grow in!

Life is exciting. Jesus is exciting. Love is worth enduring for. God's Kingdom is victorious.

This passage has been my go-to passage for this year. It is a very popular one, but it has meant so much to me this year, and its words go deep into the depths of my heart and into my intimacy with the Holy Spirit.

      The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD forever." Psalm 23

Prayer Room Chronicles

 

I’ve been slacking. I have tried to write on this blog once or twice, and honestly it was a bit difficult. I have been in this weird funk recently, that seems to have lasted quite a long time. And I honestly think, I just have some healing to do, and some reflecting to do on the past year or two. Change and business have affected me more than I ever could have thought. And not just me, but my relationship with Christ as well.

So I’m excited to say that I’m ready for a bit of a weekly schedule break. To not have as much going on, and to especially have my wednesdays where I just spend an hour dedicated to prayer and talking to God about all that is heavy in my heart and hopefully even realize and have more clarity on what is even going on in there!

So today has been a rather productive day actually, with work, with prayer and time with Christ, and with blogging, and getting a letter done, and hopefully weeding tonight before going to record more of my cd! This makes me happy, because I feel like I’ve been unproductive for the past few weeks! So Praise God!

God is good and is always moving, always at work. Ive been reminded that sometimes, we just have to be looking out for Him!
  Be thou my vision, LORD!

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”Oh taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!” Psalm 34:8

Surprise!!!!

 

oops, uploaded a couple days late!

 

I’m not one to enjoy surprises. I love surprising others…but I really dont like being surprised.

But tonight, God surprised me! I had my night planned, and to be honest I was in a rather weird mood, a pretty down mood and just wanted my Jesus time in the coffee shop to just sit and read and pray and journal all the heaviness on my heart away.
But that wasnt what God had in mind! Instead, he worked it so that i would spend time hanging out with people I rarely ever hang out with or see for that matter for a while. and then ran into another friend at the coffee shop and had a quick catch up chat!
   I guess that is exactly what I needed….sometimes I just need fellowship with people that I don’t get to see often. That is sometimes just the remedy you need, and who God will use greatly to lift your spirits. Just sharing life and laughing together. I love it.

I’m feeling very blessed and very loved right now. Which I needed that. Because let’s face it, I’m extremely hard on myself. so getting together with some different people is quite a relief for me a lot of times.
Thank You God!
I love that you surprise me. I love that you know exactly what I need. I love that you pay attention to me and don’t want me to stay in a weird funky mood. I love that you want me to feel loved and to know and believe that I am loved and found in You and no one or nothing else!

THANK YOU MY KING!

 

Verse of the Day:
”Rejoice in the Lord always, again I will say, Rejoice.”
Philippians 4:4

reminiscing

 

I love God’s Sovereignty and how He knits people together.
Tonight as I’m sitting in a coffee shop, supposed to be working on quite a few different papers….but I guess God has other plans as Natasha and I keep distracting each other and just chat away. Reminiscing on the people we know, and how God has knit us and others together and worked in different relationships.
   It just blows me away that God is so Sovereign and that He knows the people we need in our lives, consistently and every now and then. and how even when people are not consistent in our lives, the bond that can be made is incredible. And the memories are life-long!

This just makes me happy, and love Jesus so much more!

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.”
Ephesians 6:10-11

Thank You God for Saving Me

 

Yesterday during church all of a sudden this realization hit me…
  If I were to die right now, at this age, in this season of life, I would be completely content with that, simply because I’ve known the Love of God.

Some of y0u probably know that this past year has been a rough year in many different areas, but one of those areas has been singleness. Ive struggled with it like never before, and its probably due to a lot of my friends getting married, therefore I hang around couples on a regular basis, as well for females entering into their mid 20’s…..its just not fun!
But i realized, as much as I desire to have a husband in the future, or right now, I’m completely content. I’m not living for that desire. I’m living for my desire for God. and if I were to die without ever knowing the bond and love of a husband….THATS OKAY! I’ve known the love of God, I have the love of God which is enough for me!

Your love, O LORD, is enough for me.
I hope and pray that the love of God is enough for you too. and if your not at that point, that you will get to that point. because God is faithful, and is jealous for you. no matter your gender, your history, your story, your hurt…He is jealous for you!

 

P.S.
(this is not a morbid post, but a Praise post, because I’m grateful for the love of my LORD!)

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.”
2 Corinthians 5:15