Addicted to worship

So, a certain someone (you know who you are) keeps telling me that I am addicted to worship.

  And you know what, she's right!

Whenever I hear worship music, especially LIVE worship music, I'm naturally drawn in and nothing else even the people I'm with doesn't seem to matter anymore...(probably should work on that).

Or, if I am alone, especially at church (which happens a lot), I can't help myself but spend an hour sometimes more either on the piano or guitar just worshipping Jesus....and I never want these moments to end. Ever. And I mean that.

I love music, I enjoy secular music a ton. But I've realized that I never know all the word to secular songs, I have to WORK so hard to remember all of the words...but with worship music, they just flow and are easy to remember the lyrics. Probably because they resonate with my heart so much, where songs like "do what you want, what you want with my body.." really don't resonate with my heart....(I know that's hard to believe for as much as I sing that line...😝)

The point of me sharing this with you; I have fallen deeper in love with Christ this year. I have fallen deeper in love with worshipping Him through song. It's been a huge struggle the past 4-5 months in worship...from my voice occasionally giving out (which it still does at times, in corporate and private worship), and from nerves and anxiety taking over my mind and body....I have had to endure....and to fight....for something that I truly love and appreciate with an immense passion. It may sound silly but I don't think I've ever fought so hard physically for something in my life...and I think that's why I appreciate worship so much more now, and why I have fallen so much more in love with God through worship and every aspect of it. I have seen His power in ways I had forgotten that He moves in. My heart has been re-ignited. My passion has been fueled. And though the enemy even still tries to pull me down....especially with my voice and insecurities, I know that I can push through and that I will because The Lord is my Shepherd...and I have a community who fights with me. 

And I could not be more blessed.

"God is spirit,and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and in truth." John 4:24

"And he said to them, 'You shall love The Lord your God with all you heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." Matthew 22:37

"Ascribe to The Lord the glory due his name; worship The Lord in the splendor or holiness." Psalm 29:2 (Or beauty of holiness! In the NIV)

Intentionality

Ever since being apart of Off The Wall, one word that has continually been repeated over the years is...intentional.

As much as I have grown in being intentional, I am finding, I still have lots of room to grow in this, but I know that I am not alone in this, for as do many others in my community.

  It's very easy to keep things surfacey, for fear of making people uncomfortable, or even making yourself uncomfortable and placing yourself in awkward situations or even situations where you may face rejection. But I think I can speak for most people when I say that I desire to be intentional, and to not be so surfacey. But fear just seems to be greater. And it should not be.

My days are so much better when I start them off with encouraging people, or praying. When I do that, it never fails that I have at least one great conversation that day that is more than "how are you?" But reveals a piece of the heart. I like conversations that reveal the heart. I like hearts, a lot. Like, a lot. I am learning this! 

So, if you read this and you know me, challenge me on my intentionality. Ask me if I have been intentional with people and my conversations and in encouraging others. And I also challenge you, to be more intentional. Go out of your way, out of your comfort zone to be intentional. If you need to pray for someone with them, in public, or write them a letter, or send a text, or just want to know more about them but have been to scared to ask...ask! They probably want you to...and if you do get asked an intentional question, give a response. Be intentional in that. ☺️

✌️ and ❤️ brothers and sisters. 

Did you see that?

If this mornings sunrise is not a sign to you at how Glorious and Sovereign and Faithful and abounding in love our Creator God is....I'm not sure that your even human. 

   Pictures can't even do justice. I tried, and then decided to just be still and watch.

Joy truly comes in the morning.

Last night I felt like there was a weight on me. I couldn't have even told you what it was, or what was wrong with me really, I just felt weighted down and all I wanted was to cry and to be held. 

So I walked. And as I walked, not a whole lot happened. But I did keep reciting Psalm 23 and meditating on The Lord being my Shepherd. 😊

I think sometimes when we (I) have really, really high weeks, as well, when your getting to a place where you are becoming more and more sensitive to the Holy Spirit, you (I) just get tired. I believe last night was just me crashing after an intense week. And I could be completely wrong, and I pray that if I have a sin issue or something that needs dealt with that God will make that evident and I completely believe He will do just that!

But overall, psalm 23 just brings me comfort. Because people can only give you so much. They can only comfort you so much. Jesus can and will give you all you need. Plus more.

✌️peace and be 💪 (strong) in The Lord! 

Peace in restlessness

Life is exciting.

    Yeah, I have my routine, my normal day to day activities. My days don't change a whole lot.

But life, is exciting.

Because Jesus is alive!

I've been blogging a lot more recently, because God is mighty at work and I just feel the need to share. 

As well, there has been a shift in some of my attitude...(which is a great thing because I have a terrible attitude the majority of the time).

For instance, all I would love to do is just go to bed and sleep a good nights sleep. But my heart is beating like crazy and my stomach feels nervous...and this is becoming a normal thing and I have come to know this as the Holy Spirit moving me to pray, to read, to write, and to encourage. Sleep is not that important in the Kingdom of God I am realizing, and I am becoming completely okay with this. Although I do find myself asking God why He so chooses to keep me awake sometimes, I also find myself looking forward and appreciating these times. Because they are beautiful and only draw me closer to God. Intimacy. I love intimacy with my LORD! 

   I now find myself saying to God, 'what do you want me to do. Who needs prayer. What shall I read....' Rather than complaining that I can't fall asleep and just getting frustrated. 

God changes people. God changes hearts. God changes attitudes. God changes hearts of stone, to hearts of flesh. God changes lives. 

    Surrender your will, and your faith will grow. Obedience will lead you to more intimacy. Asking the right questions, will open so many doors. Shifting your focus, will bring so much joy and freedom. 

Opening your heart, will bring pain, but also an immense amount of unconditional love. 

It is all worth it my friends. Believe me. Jesus is worth it the sacrifice. For sacrifice and offering ourselves, is our reasonable act of worship.

   I encourage you to read Hebrews 12 tonight before you go to bed, or right now in fact. Whether you are alone or with people. Jesus is worth it.

✌️ and ❤️ brethren.

Changed

It's amazing how people change.

It's amazing to be able to look back and see how much YOU yourself have changed. And what has helped shape the change.

I've had a lot of changes over the past few years, and changes are always happening I've come to learn. Change is good. But one change that I keep realizing recently, is how I cannot stand to be alone.

I used to not be able to get enough alone time. I actually preferred to be alone, than with people. I processed better among other things. 

I do still have a lot of alone time, and some alone time is definitely needed, but I'm realizing that when I am alone for to long, I get extremely antsy and discombobulated. I also am more tempted to believe lies and go to deep in those lies while alone. I also have noticed, that I am just plain happier and more excited when I get to be with people.

My perspective changes when I am with people, my life is no longer about me. I can process better by talking through things. I believe less lies because people are taking time to be with me showing me they love and care about me. Even if there isn't much conversation going on, the fact that I am in the presence of people is enough. One of my favorite things actually is just going to a coffee shop and reading a book with a friend. With no obligation to talk, but of course that happens! 

Change has frightened me for a long time. Life has been 'weird.' But, I have come to love change. Change is exciting, and proof that you are moving forward. I love how God moves in change and how He orchestrates it for His glory and our betterment. 

✌️ and ❤️ brethren. 

I have Favor.

So, I had this whole New Year's Eve post typed out, and the more I kept writing, the more I decided to delete it. It was pretty bahumbuggy (it's a word in my dictionary thank you) anyway! 

  Instead, u get my coffee shop meditations:

I can't help but be amazed by the Favor of God in my life. This has been something that has always blown me away, and something that always baffles me as to...'why me?' But God is faithful, and gracious and loving, that because He loves me, and has called me to Himself, of course I will have favor with Him, because ultimately, my desire is in fact to please Him. And that desire only grows stronger as I get older. I am not deserving to be able to feel and experience the incredible presence of God everyday of my life, I am not deserving for my prayers to be answered almost immediately sometimes, I am not deserving to have the heart of my Savior revealed to me and to feel His love for me and to love others in return....I am not deserving...in and of myself. But Christ's sacrifice (blood) and imputed righteousness gives me favor. Favor where I can receive freely all of these things and more. Where I can have peace that passes all understanding, where I can have an unconditional love, where I have joy unending, I can have an eternity with Christ to look forward to and His Holy Spirit to live inside of me right now.

      I just love Jesus. I love God. And I love the Holy Spirit. 

 

May the peace of Christ rest on your hearts my friends. 

✌️

For The Honor.

I love times in the presence of God, no matter where one is at, when your heart just feels like exploding. Complete gratitude, complete awe and wonder, reverence, fear, love...these times leave me weary. But if weariness can be a good thing, than it's that kind of weary! 

I want to share this lyric video with you of this song...for the honor by elevation worship. I first heard this song at a conference OTW was apart of at another local church a few months ago, and the first time I heard it, I cried through the whole song. And that same thing followed the other few times of hearing it too. 

  There are some songs that just resonate with out hearts in an almost indescribable way, and this song is by far in the top 2 for me. Every word in this song, my heart just wants to cry with it and proclaim. I believe every word, and the beauty of God in this song is just overwhelming to me...hence one reason for the tears.

I hope this song resonates with your heart too.

And I sure do hope that someday God will inspire me to write such beautiful lyrics and music that will resonate with the hearts of His people as this song has for me.

http://youtu.be/EBuMMrFghVc

I took a walk

Walking is extremely good for you.

  I find that whenever I am taking the time to take walks (outside), I am much more inspired, if feel better physically and emotionally, I am more joyful, I am praying more....

A few years ago in the summertime Walking everyday had become a habit. I would up to 8 miles some days. This summer, not so much, due to a hurt foot. But even after a time of healing for my foot, I still did to get myself back in the habit. So last night, after the Family Christmas festivities, I had the urge to go for a walk, in the cold. So I had my new fleece leggings, a fleece, and my wind-proof jacket and a headband and off I went, and I kept asking myself..."why have I not kept this up?"

    I know that walking for me, keeps me healthier in all areas of my life and I thoroughly enjoy it because it's incredible time with my Savior.

At the start of our Off The Wall year this fall, we had a retreat. And at that retreat the main theme was "are you with us?!" The word WITH is an extremely powerful word. I am more WITH God, when I am physically walking with Him. I am more aware of Him when I am physically walking With Him. I am more WITH Him when I am walking WITH Him!

So i encourage you today, that whatever it is that makes you more WITH God, however simple or however unique, take the time to do it. Even if it's just for 10 minutes a day. Because your Savior is Jealous for you and wants time WITH you. And time spent with Him, should be part of our acceptable worship to Him, for all He has done for us and in us and through us!

"The LORD bless you and keep you; 

the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you; 

the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace."

Numbers 6:24-26

"Good morning starshine, the earth says hello!"

I used to strongly dislike mornings. 

Now, the mornings where I am up the earliest, are the ones that get me excited for my day. There's more Jesus in my day on those mornings.

Like this morning for instance....I woke up at 5:30am quite groggy...and just wanted to go back to bed. But I needed to drive my Amish girls, so I put on my sweats  and a big sweatshirt and put my hood up and snow boots on and off I went. I have about a half hour in between some of the girls, so I usually use that time to read the Word, but this morning, I was so tired all I wanted to do was nap, so I tried, and there was worship music on and I just couldn't help myself, so I just had some incredible worship time. And then when I was driving, the sunrise this morning was absolutely a stunner! And I once again, couldn't help but worship. And then my last girl, gave me a little donut (which of course I have already eaten) and an adorable handmade card and some hot chocolate! How could I not be grateful and smile and once again, worship my Awesome God?

My day, is already made. An it's only 8:30am! My day has been full of joy and worship to my Creator, and it's only 8:30am. Back in the day, I would still be a grump at this hour or asleep. But the older I am getting, I am realizing there are more important things to life than lots of sleep and being in grumpy moods.

So, I exhort you today, to worship in th big and the small. To fall in love. To see the beauty of God. To walk with Him, in grace and joy! And even if all your body wants to do is go back to bed....live for Jesus, not your body. That's what I'm going to try to do! 

"Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul." Psalm 143:8

Friendships

Sometimes I get really overwhelmed with gratefulness.

When I take time to see how incredibly blessed I am, that's when it hits me. 

I love friendships. 

I love my friends.

Now a days, I think we throw that word around and call even acquaitenances friends, and depending how you make friends, it may very well be true, but for me, friendships take a while. I can be your friend, way before you will be my friend.

But there are also different levels of friendships. And I'm not blogging to go into all those details.

I'm blogging, to say that I am thankful for the friendships in my life. Especially the ones, that have been a journey full of pot holes and wrong directions....because those are my strongest.

I'm thankful for the friends who know how you think and work, the ones who speak truth to you even when you don't want to hear it. The ones where you just laugh and laugh and laugh. The ones where you can not see or talk to that person for months and then whenever you do see or talk to each other, it's like you were never apart. The friends who will just pray for and with you. The friends who randomly send you encouraging text messages or emails. The friends who get excited with and for you. The friends who know your fears and weaknesses and still love you. The friends who are faithful and loyal no matter how ugly you may be at times. The friends who keep you focused and can bring a light in the dark. The friends who just with their presence can bring peace and joy. The friends who will do anything for you. 

Friendships are beautiful. Old and new. I enjoy them greatly. 

Don't take them for granted.

Don't be afraid of them. 

Embrace them. 

✌️

Welcome to springtime

It clearly is winter outside (being December)....but inside of my heart and soul, it is Springtime. The flowers are blooming, the birds are singing and there is a sweet smell in the air.

For the past 2 years I've been between winter/fall spiritually. It was like this huge weight that never left and my vision was clouded. And now all of a sudden, since about 3-4 weeks ago...that weight and cloud has been lifted. It's really difficult for me to explain what exactly is going on and what I'm feeling, but know that it is freeing and exciting. 

It's like I had forgotten what my relationship(intimacy) with God was like for the past 2 years and now all of sudden, things are back to how I know them to be. 

  The intimacy and presence of God that has always been so strong in my life, is here. My eyes see the complete love that The Lord is always lavishing upon me, I see once again how He is working out every little detail of my life and things around me. I am constantly being blown away and awed each day by my Sovereign Creator. The joy of The Lord truly is my strength.....and so much more...like I said, it's hard for me to explain and put into words for you. 

The best way to put it, I feel free. No more weights, no more clouds, just the relationship I have with Jesus is redeemed, back to where I know it to be and even stronger and better! 

  And all I can say, is Praise The Lord. bless His Holy name! 

  

Presence of The Lord

I've always assumed a happy feeling and happy emotions with the presence of God. Until just the other day, when I felt a way that was in all honesty, dreadful. But as I was journaling and processing, I began to wonder why the presence of God should feel happy....His presence is an incredible gift. And when He is mightily moving and the enemy is trying to stop what He is doing, of course that presence is not going to feel happy. It's going to feel heavy, scary, and frankly quite dreadful...

      My point....the presence of God is some light happy thing....it is a gift, that is real, and scary because God is so unbelievably Holy, that to be in the presence of Him, is a big weight at times. A weight that may not always feel the greatest, but one that I never want to take for granted; that the God of Creation, would come and live inside of me and live among a sinful people, and greater still, live inside of me.

"And an angel of The Lord appeared to them, and the glory of The Lord shone around them, and they were filled with great fear." Luke 2:9

"But the LORD of hosts, him you shall honor as holy. Let him be your fear, and let him be your dread." Isaiah 8:13

"Let all the earth fear the LORD; let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of him!" Psalm 33:8

"For great is the LORD, and greatly to be praised; he is to be feared above all gods." Psalm 96:4

Falling in Love....

This is going to be short and really simple...

Falling in love with Jesus is one of my most favorite things to do in this world. And it's one thing that will last all of eternity. Yet I sometimes forget that I am being wooed by this amazing, Holy Creator, so I forget that I am falling in love with Him because I am overwhelmed by the weight of the world and the attacks of the enemy and my own sin.

UNTIL.....

I spend time with Jesus. I give Him my attention. I sit with Him. I worship Him. I walk with Him. I pray for others.....and the list could go on.

I forget, until I do the things that cause me to love Him more. Things that get my attention off of me, and onto what He is doing and who He is.

So I entreat you, brothers and sisters, figure out what causes you to fall more in love with Jesus Christ, and DO those things. Protect those times. Those gifts. Those relationships. Whatever it is.

Loving Jesus, and being loved by Jesus is the greatest gift anyone can ever receive. 

"In this is love, not that we have loved God but that He loved us and send His son to be the propitiation for our sins." 1 John 4:10

"We love because He first loved us." 1 John 4:19

I took a walk...

My favorite thing about taking walks (with Jesus), is seeing people on the street. Whether its just a smile, or a hello, a shoutout, or a hug and conversation from people u know. 

God's timing, is the best timing, and my favorite timing. God has got some pretty impeccable timing!

This morning I wanted to go on my walk earlier than I intended, but because of someone working in the basement of the house that I wasn't intending, I ended up waiting to go on my walk later. And on my walk later...I ran into people I don't see often at all and was able to talk with them and even walk a little ways with them. It seems like the smallest thing, but it is one of my favorite things, and if God hadn't worked it out for me to go on my walk later, I wouldn't have seen them on my walk and that just made my morning! 

So like I said, God's timing Is the best. It's perfect. In any and every matter of our lives. So whatever you are waiting for, HOPE and TRUST in the LORD'S timing! 

Fear of the LORD

It surprises me, that I still get surprised and chuckle at God when He answers my prayers. I asked him the other week to give me more of a fear of Him, because I feel like this is one area that I lack often, having a fear of God.

So here are some instances that are reminding me of how Powerful God really is, which has caused an utter awe and even a fear of Him...
   My pastor's son just passed away, I had just seen him a week before he died. The realization that God can and will take us whenever He see's fit, for whatever reason that we may not even know. One minute we are here, one minute we are not.
  Last night we had a big thunder storm. I sat outside beside the rain came pouring just watching the lightning and hearing the thunder. I jumped a couple times...once outside, once in my bed, and once in the middle of the night a clasp of thunder startled me in my sleep. I love absolutely love thunderstorms, but to be honest, I don't ever remember being this 'afraid' during a storm. My heart was beating so fast, I felt paralyzed and unafraid to move and I was wondering if I would even be able to sleep (but of course that was no problem for me in the end). I was SURE that there was going to be a tree down somewhere near my house by the sounds of the lightning striking something and the feel of the thunder under my feet and even inside my chest. Needless to say, I was in awe and made to see that God is ALL-POWERFUL and Sovereign over absolutely everything. The weight and depth of this, is penetrating my soul and causing me to fall in love with God so much more and to see him in a newer, more respected, more revered light!
   Then this morning, Im sitting on the porch (I really love to sit on our porch!) reading my John Piper devotions and what is it about....you guessed it....FEAR OF GOD! As soon as I read the title and the first verse, I just started smiling and chuckling!

This Fear of God, is a fear that draws us in to Him. It should not cause us to run away from Him, but to run TO Him!


'Do not fear, for God has come to test you, that the fear of him may be before you, that you may not sin." Exodus 20:20

"Let all the earth fear the LORD; let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him!" Psalm 33:8

"O worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness, fear before him, all the earth." Psalm 96:9

"In the fear of the LORD is strong confidence; and his children shall have a place of refuge." Proverbs 14:26

"The fear of the LORD tendeth to life; and he that hath it shall abide satisfied; he shall not be visited with evil." Proverbs 19:23

"The fear of man lays a snare; but whoever trusts in the LORD is safe." Proverbs 29:25



His creation responds to His Sovereignty, to His Power, His Words....and we are a part of that creation. How do we respond?

It has been quite a while since I have been on here....mostly due to the fact that my computer is failing me so I havent been able to use it for about 2 months...so now I get to hijack my generous roommates computer!

The past couple of days for me, have been incredible days. They have been productive, and full of Jesus, and joy. I have felt more of God, seen more of God, learned more, and experienced more joy in the last 2 weeks than I have in the previous few months.
   I had thought that the season that I was in was just hopeless, and me just being worn out and selfish...and it was partly that. But I'm realizing more and more, that there of course was a purpose and a goal in that season. What, I do not know. But I'm finally at peace and truly grateful for the past year, which I have been waiting for, for quite a while it seems. I feel like God is restoring the joy of my salvation, reviving my soul. I feel alive and warm, and not almost dead and cold. My perspectives are changing, my attitude still needs some major work, but i can see that changing as well. God is growing me, He HAS BEEN growing me, just in a way that I wasnt wanting and that I probably have been fighting.
  I love that life happens in seasons. And there are those seasons that are not so much fun...that feel really dry and you have no clue what's going on. But you just have to keep going, you have to endure. And then God breaks through. I needed to learn to endure, I still do, but I actually am starting to feel stronger. I know this is just the beginning, and these things take baby steps, but I just want to say again how grateful I am for each and every season of life. The good, the bad, the frustrating, the happy. God is good through it all, and Sovereign and LORD over it all. And I always have things I need to learn and areas I can grow in!

Life is exciting. Jesus is exciting. Love is worth enduring for. God's Kingdom is victorious.

This passage has been my go-to passage for this year. It is a very popular one, but it has meant so much to me this year, and its words go deep into the depths of my heart and into my intimacy with the Holy Spirit.

      The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD forever." Psalm 23

Prayer Room Chronicles

 

I’ve been slacking. I have tried to write on this blog once or twice, and honestly it was a bit difficult. I have been in this weird funk recently, that seems to have lasted quite a long time. And I honestly think, I just have some healing to do, and some reflecting to do on the past year or two. Change and business have affected me more than I ever could have thought. And not just me, but my relationship with Christ as well.

So I’m excited to say that I’m ready for a bit of a weekly schedule break. To not have as much going on, and to especially have my wednesdays where I just spend an hour dedicated to prayer and talking to God about all that is heavy in my heart and hopefully even realize and have more clarity on what is even going on in there!

So today has been a rather productive day actually, with work, with prayer and time with Christ, and with blogging, and getting a letter done, and hopefully weeding tonight before going to record more of my cd! This makes me happy, because I feel like I’ve been unproductive for the past few weeks! So Praise God!

God is good and is always moving, always at work. Ive been reminded that sometimes, we just have to be looking out for Him!
  Be thou my vision, LORD!

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”Oh taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!” Psalm 34:8

Surprise!!!!

 

oops, uploaded a couple days late!

 

I’m not one to enjoy surprises. I love surprising others…but I really dont like being surprised.

But tonight, God surprised me! I had my night planned, and to be honest I was in a rather weird mood, a pretty down mood and just wanted my Jesus time in the coffee shop to just sit and read and pray and journal all the heaviness on my heart away.
But that wasnt what God had in mind! Instead, he worked it so that i would spend time hanging out with people I rarely ever hang out with or see for that matter for a while. and then ran into another friend at the coffee shop and had a quick catch up chat!
   I guess that is exactly what I needed….sometimes I just need fellowship with people that I don’t get to see often. That is sometimes just the remedy you need, and who God will use greatly to lift your spirits. Just sharing life and laughing together. I love it.

I’m feeling very blessed and very loved right now. Which I needed that. Because let’s face it, I’m extremely hard on myself. so getting together with some different people is quite a relief for me a lot of times.
Thank You God!
I love that you surprise me. I love that you know exactly what I need. I love that you pay attention to me and don’t want me to stay in a weird funky mood. I love that you want me to feel loved and to know and believe that I am loved and found in You and no one or nothing else!

THANK YOU MY KING!

 

Verse of the Day:
”Rejoice in the Lord always, again I will say, Rejoice.”
Philippians 4:4

reminiscing

 

I love God’s Sovereignty and how He knits people together.
Tonight as I’m sitting in a coffee shop, supposed to be working on quite a few different papers….but I guess God has other plans as Natasha and I keep distracting each other and just chat away. Reminiscing on the people we know, and how God has knit us and others together and worked in different relationships.
   It just blows me away that God is so Sovereign and that He knows the people we need in our lives, consistently and every now and then. and how even when people are not consistent in our lives, the bond that can be made is incredible. And the memories are life-long!

This just makes me happy, and love Jesus so much more!

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.”
Ephesians 6:10-11

Thank You God for Saving Me

 

Yesterday during church all of a sudden this realization hit me…
  If I were to die right now, at this age, in this season of life, I would be completely content with that, simply because I’ve known the Love of God.

Some of y0u probably know that this past year has been a rough year in many different areas, but one of those areas has been singleness. Ive struggled with it like never before, and its probably due to a lot of my friends getting married, therefore I hang around couples on a regular basis, as well for females entering into their mid 20’s…..its just not fun!
But i realized, as much as I desire to have a husband in the future, or right now, I’m completely content. I’m not living for that desire. I’m living for my desire for God. and if I were to die without ever knowing the bond and love of a husband….THATS OKAY! I’ve known the love of God, I have the love of God which is enough for me!

Your love, O LORD, is enough for me.
I hope and pray that the love of God is enough for you too. and if your not at that point, that you will get to that point. because God is faithful, and is jealous for you. no matter your gender, your history, your story, your hurt…He is jealous for you!

 

P.S.
(this is not a morbid post, but a Praise post, because I’m grateful for the love of my LORD!)

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.”
2 Corinthians 5:15