missing you.

 

I don’t quite know what exactly to write tonight.  I’m missing a lot of things and a lot of people at the moment a lot of different thoughts and emotions going on right now it seems. But one thing I do know…God is faithful, and everything in our lives will always be for His glory and honor and fame.

Just really been loving reading Daniel and even my fiction book by Ted Deker. and I’m just constantly being reminded that God always is victorious, and will always come through and it’s all for His name’s sake! and I find joy in this!

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”Then the presidents and satraps sought to find a ground for complaint against Daniel with regard to the kingdom, but they could find no ground for complaint or any fault, because he was faithful, and no error or fault was found in him.”
Daniel 6:4

finding love in struggles.

 

Seeing people in their struggles and being transparent, learning to deal with issues in life, and God just breaking them….makes me fall more in love with people.

I like realness. When we as sinful people, admit that we have issues and are willing to deal with them, realize them and allow God to work on us.

God uses the brokenness in people, to help me fall more in love.

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”I will sing to the LORD because he has dealt bountifully with me.”
Psalm 13:6

thinking

 

Have you ever just been sitting somewhere and all of a sudden in a moment, think of what all couple possibly be happening at that exact same moment?!
   All the deaths, the hunger, the tears, the joy, the celebrations, the parties, the accidents, the people crossing the street, the sleeping, the fights, the walking, the preaching, the worshipping, the wailing, the surgeries….

just thinking of that kinda blows your mind. but the thinking’s not done..because then you realize, GOD SEE’S ALL OF IT and knows all that is happening intricately. He is all-knowing. He is everywhere.

I had honestly never thought about this before, at least that I can remember, cuz I feel like this is something I would remember. I’ve known that God is all-knowing and everywhere at once, but to actually sit and think about it and all that couple possibly be happening, which I probably can’t even come close to imagining, God actually see’s it all! That is pretty astounding to me!

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”For the LORD is righteous; he loves righteous deeds; the upright shall behold his face.”
Psalm 11:7

Daniel

 

So dreams and their meaning have been a thing i’ve been thinking about recently and praying about. and so I decided to start reading Daniel, becasue well, Daniel interpreted dreams. And while reading today, I was pretty excited and in awe with God!
  In short, I only read the first 2 chapters, but basically what blew my away was when Daniel went to King Nebuchadnezzar and told him his dream and basically, from what I understand, Neb (for short) was basically dreaming of the ‘latter days’, or what I believe would be the end times. In verse 44 it says “And in the days of those kinds the God of heaven will set up a kingdom that shall never be destroyed, nor shall the kingdom be left to another people. It shall break in pieces all these kingdoms and bring them to an end, and it shall stand forever….” and there is more. but we were talking about the end times the other night to and how Daniel is full of prophecy and I just find it absolutely amazing that God gave Neb a dream about the end days and that Daniel even told him the dream without him giving him a hint of what he actually dreamed, and he was just confident in God and sought God on the matter and God revealed and of all things, He was revealing the end.             Kind of makes me wonder why then, why Neb!? But I know there is a purpose in it, maybe I’ll find more in reading, or maybe I’ll never know. either way, its okay! :) I just love God more!

 

It’s also  pretty cool how when you love and care for someone, you can cry tears of happyness for them when you think about them and their future and all God has done in their life.

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”…No wise men, enchanters, magicians, or astrologers can show to the king the mystery that the king has asked, but there is a God in heaven who reveals mysteries, and he has made known to King Nebuchadnezzar what will be in the latter days…” Daniel 2:27-28

what to choose

 

You know, its very easy to go through your day, and not really think of Christ.
   But as I look back on my day, I see good and i see bad in my thought processes. Like any normal day of a sinful human being. Praise the Lord for His grace and sanctification. and especially recently, my mind just seems to be all over the place, and ive been forgetting things more, i think i’ve been stressed and spiritually attacked. and I think that we forget all to often. A lot of things. but especially, we forget to think about Christ. We forget that there is an invisible war going on, that we are not just fighting against flesh and blood as Ephesians 6 tells us, but against spiritual forces in the heavenly places…Our lives are serious. Jesus coming back is serious.

Tonight we were talking about the return of Christ…and at one point, I got super excited. Knowing that one day Jesus will reign on earth, and one day, there will be a new heaven and a new earth and Satan will be cast out forever and we will all spend eternity with the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost. This stuff is real. Do we really believe that?! When you sit and actually think about it, it kinda blows you away. We forget that there is a spiritual realm, that someday will be our reality. And I must say, I am excited. because I know that God wins.

So I am grateful, that even in the midst of forgetfulness due to numerous things this life grants us…that God still loves me and does remind me when I need reminded and hears my prayer, because my desire is to remember Jesus every second. And I still can’t wrap a lot of things around my head, but I know it to be true, that I have favor with God and He loves me so deeply, and He will never let me go. I am grateful.

May we, His children, not be able to help but be on our faces before our Heavenly Merciful Holy Father. He is greater than this world and all other power’s.

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”I will give thanks to the LORD with my whole heart: I will recount all of your wonderful deeds…And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O LORD, have not forsaken those who seek you….For the needy shall not always be forgotten, and the hope of the poor shall not persih forever…Put them in fear, O LORD! Let the nations know that they are but men.”
  Psalm 9:1, 10, 18, 20

good lessons in 2 days.

 

I skipped yesterday. so tonight, is a double whammy!

Yesterday:
     Who knew you could learn awesome lessons from 3 yr olds?! I love it. My heart was extremely blessed and even challenged yesterday when during worship with Polen, during the song “Always”, little Raine was seriously singing at the top of his lungs. with all he got. He didn’t care if ppl were laughing, looking, smiling…he didnt care. he just did it. cuz i believe he loves Jesus and he loves music.
  As well, we do what we see people around us do.
This is huge, because you look at children. They repeat what you say, what you do…can be kind of scary. but they do it. and we do that with our friends and people we are around often, we all of a sudden notice that we start talking or acting like the people we are around all the time. We have a high influence rate on people, whether we realize it or not.
   But my lesson last night in all of this was…if a kid, who see’s his daddy sing with every ounce of him and doesn’t care if the people around him care because he’s just worshipping, can sing that way….why can’t i? Why do I let fear grab hold of me?! WHo is man…that I should be fearful of him?! God is totally worth it! So why, so often, do i live in shame…hindering a gift, a privilege.

I think this is partly why God tells us to be like children. They just do what they see their Father doing (for the most part) when really young. Cuz when we grow up…we lose that. But if we 1. have good Fathers and 2. look to God as our Father, i pray that we don’t lose that, and i wish we wouldn’t lose it.

 

Today:      APPRECIATE: to value or regard highly…
       I really don’t know if we actually know what it means to TRULY appreciate people, or anything. Unless we witness and come in contact with really appreciate people.
I love the poor. My heart breaks for them. Esp poor children. I have had an opportunity to serve in Romania for 2 weeks with kids and honestly, one of the greatest things. And i would love to do it again. And I sponsor a girl from Tanzania, and it just seems to keep coming up…the poor and compassion international…and my heart just cries because I want to go so bad to see her. To see her conditions. because i read, and i hear stories and i have witnessed of how these kids will save their food to share with their families. Nothing get’s thrown away. Of a teenager who loves Jesus and leads her mother to Christ, and who just tells everyone she can about Christ…there is an urgency..(which I lack way to often). They appreciate the letter’s and money you send. People in need who appreciate even the smallest thing. Appreciate…

I want to truly appreciate people. To know what they actually looks and feels like for me in my life. Because I feel like I haven’t even touched on what it really is.

 

VERSE OF  THE DAY:
”Oh, fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him have no lack.”
Psalm 34:9

believe

 

I just like Jesus. He is cool. Time spent with Him praying and reading His word is precious time. And challenging.

Endure and Believe. are 2 words that keep coming up to me. I can only find these things in HIM, and i must allow Him to work and be my strength and not try in my own strength. I must be willing.
Willingness plays a vital role in our relationship with Christ, in our lives.

Ask yourself if your willing, to do anything for Christ, to risk anything for Christ, to give up everything for Christ, and to endure and persevere for Christ, and to believe Christ.

He Is Worth It.

 

VERSE OF THE DAY:
”I will not be afraid of many thousands of people
who have set themselves against me all around.”
Psalm 3:6

How often do I fear but one person….David had thousands of people hating him at times…yet He found refuge and strength in the LORD. Surely I can do the same.